This morning I woke up and took my girlfriend to work. When I got back home I tried to go back to sleep. I don't remember how much time passed during my sleep. I went to sleep at 8:00 am and I woke up around 9:00 am. I remember dreaming about my girlfriend and I think we were shopping for groceries, and I became sort of aware that this was impossible because I could hear her voice with me but I knew she was at work (which made me sad cause' I did not want her to go). I think this is when my sleep paralysis started to happen.
Now I use to react to this with fear and I would try to move myself physically, but recently I read a wiki article about lucid dreaming and I had a conversation with Christian (the same friend I mentioned in my second blog post) who told me that what you have to do when you enter a sleep paralysis, is not try to move yourself physically but do things mentally. I remembered this when I tried to move physically but couldn't, so I tried to float or have an out of body experience and I did!!
It was so ... amazing and weird and scary, that when it happened I wanted to go right back in my body and I did. When I am in sleep paralysis I am aware of my surroundings and environment and I can sort of see the room I am in, it's dark and it's probably cause' the lights are off. Now my body or mind tried numerous times to trick me into false awakenings, like I could hear my mother calling me.. and then I got up and went to talk to her and we got into an argument cause she was looking for something but couldn't find it and I got mad because she completely re-arranged my living room. I wanted to kick her out and she wanted her printer back, but it's my printer I yelled back at her. Now she got into this weird pose that she would never get into in real life (up on a table with her legs really spread apart) and everything felt pretty surreal so I had an instant recollection of what I learned about dreaming and I said to myself loudly in my dream, "THIS IS A DREAM."
Right away I was back in my bed... now everything was happening too fast, I could order myself back into my dream and try to wake up normally and I think I did try that once... but when I got into my Lucid Dream again which I did because I said to myself "THIS IS A DREAM." I remembered Christian told me you can ask your brain questions like "what do I fear," and "show me my repressed fears." I did both and when I asked what do I fear I saw "IT," from Stephen King's movie standing by my wall, and I got really mad and I gave it the middle finger and it went away. When I asked for my repressed fears.... HOLY SHIT... fear choked my chest and the whole room started flashing black and white really fast and in the middle where IT was standing by the wall by my bed I saw this dark figure, and in the mean time this was happening I felt my body being dragged away from the figure. Right away I panicked and I said this is a dream! Then when I went back in my dream I told myself I was going to wake up and I did. And I saw black spots on the ceiling before I turned the lights on.
Now there might be some stuff I forgot, but I am sure I remembered the more exciting and crazy stuff. But, from now on I am going to keep something to record myself, and I think next time I won't rush things and really experiment. I will post my dream journal and lucid dreaming experiences in this blog, so keep reading.
If you want to try Lucid Dreaming for yourself, I recommend being very cautious. Do your research and read the article on Lucid Dreaming that wikipedia has.
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Amazing! Dreams are such powerful tools. You can use them to learn about yourself as well as experience things you could only dream about. They are a window to an entirely new world. I'm going to start getting back into lucid dreaming one of these days.
ReplyDeleteI wonder what the dark figure was when you asked your dream to expose your repressed fears. Maybe you were simply experiencing the emotion of fear itself, and the dark figure and flashing lights just appeared to reinforce that feeling. Or maybe it's something that is so fearsome to you, that your conscious mind was not able to fully face and accept it.